I have to admit it, I never have been very good at looking at the past, analyzing what went wrong, and what did go right over the past year. I know a number of people who do this every year, heck, I know people who do it on a quarterly basis, but that’s not really me. I guess I resist it now because for so many years I was pretty depressed and self trashing was a way of life. So a “review” for me, is a really easy way to go back down that road again and beat myself up all over again for what I didn’t do and what I should have done.
Instead, I’m going to validate what I did do, what I did create because that is a lot more positive than looking at the negative. When I did start to look at my creative journey over the past year, I must say, I’m kind of impressed. Thank goodness for this blog, because my memory isn’t what it used to be.
Here’s the list:
I wove 5 scarves of different fibers.
I spun many yards of fiber.
I learned how to dye yarn, dyeing 3 warps and 3 weft yarns.
I learned how to make mini books, many of which have turned into excellent little ornaments.
I knitted 2 hats, one was an original design, came up with another original design of an infinity scarf and knit two of them. I also knit a gorgeous cabled headband that will be a Christmas gift. I also started a lace shawl and a sweater, both of which I’ll get back to soon.
I crocheted two Queen Anne’s Lace scarves.
I also knit 5 ornaments for the tree.
So when I numerate my creative year, it’s much easier to see I was no slouch. But it isn’t just about all the “things” I’ve created, it’s also about overcoming creative inertia. The self doubt and self trashing that has me comparing and competing with what so and so did, and how much I love their work and wish mine was just. like. theirs. So then, I would be successful, and have that imagined life of a “successful artist.” The more I delve into what constitutes the “successful artist” the more I know, you get there by a lot of hard work, not giving up and keep putting one foot in front of the other, while you create that piece that makes your soul sing.
This reflection gives me direction as to what I might like to explore further this coming year, like diving more into weaving and spinning. And spinning yarn for weaving! I’ve also sparked a desire to explore doll making. I feel there are some strong female images that are fighting to get out and take form. At some point over this next year I’ll also be able to figure out where a business fits in with all this creativity, but I’m not quite sure where that is yet. For now, I do know just being able to say to myself, “you did fine, you did what you could” is the most important thing on my path, because the alternative is not conducive to allowing that creative spirit to thrive. And I know that this coming year will have it’s own challenges that all I can say is “Bring it On!” because I’m ready for the next steps.
I’d love to hear your perspective on your year both past and future. Where have you been on your creative journey, and where are you going? Let me know in the comments.